I'm who I'm

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2010-06-25T03:05:00.001+08:00

my head spin round and round till i cannot think liao. rarely feel so tired. later i m gonna start work at 1pm then end at 11pm. are you as tired as i m?

crap day.

2010-06-11T22:36:00.003+08:00

CAN I JUST DISAPPEAR FOR A DAY???? THIS REALLY IS A PAIN IN MY ARSE. MANY MANY THINGS HAPPENED. LIFE DONT HAVE TO BE THIS BAD.

Brewerks.

2010-06-10T16:03:00.002+08:00

Hi all. =)

I have finally been accepted to Brewerks!! One hr $6.50 aint bad, if i can do well i might get a pay rise! haha, hope i can get it real soon. first of all, i would like to screw JJ for talking nonsense. You ah, always have conflict with me, though friendly conflicts but, I ALWAYS WIN!! haha, JKJK. ok la, always i start first one.

To be honest, i wasn't expect you to sms me and asking me how have i been. Cus you have been saying about your ex for a very long time and i m just listening. now you told me you won't want to be with your ex anymore. So, do u think i will make it as a hint or just a random remark? i don't know. I thought i can help you but i can't. Because i m not you and i cannot make decisions for you.

I found out that this year, life has not been kind to me. All i wanted is to have peaceful time with my love ones but always there's a setback. This is life like all of you have said, but maybe, just maybe, life might have a glitch. This glitch might just change your life for good.

Maybe thats all for now.

see all of you soon. maybe once more.

BACK!!

2010-06-08T01:08:00.003+08:00

From left to right' Top row: Benjamin Cho, Huai Min, Yin Quan, Wei Liang, (blocked face) Norman.
Second row: Jia Leong, Hong Jun, Me!, Kun Xun, Wen Hui,(in front of Wen Hui) Charleen, Hajar, Yao Guang(block Norman face)

So long since i posted anything on my blog!!! feel like i m trying to clear the dust off this blog. Tsk! haha. This few days has been pretty busy. Looking for jobs and stuff. Went out with my beloved Class 4C'08 batch! so happy to see them!! Went out pretty late because i actually decided not to go as i do not have enough cash, but didn't regret at all when i went there! So much fun that we used to had in sch! We played pool at first. Amazingly, i didn't pay a single cent as Yin Quan decided to help me pay. HAHAHA!! But i lost all matches though, -.- Opened 3 tables. Shocked when the girls opened a table by themselves! SO RICH!!

After that we wanted to follow our original plan of watching movie but the seats weren't available so we ended up going to the nearby Pastamania. =D 13 awesome people went in and make so much noises!! Then during the ordering of food, we made a mess outta it. haha, my food was Beef Bolognese but it became Beef Lasagna, though it wasn't my food but it taste awesome too!! After Yao Guang's food reaches the table, he ate so fast that before our food has arrived his food has already been swallowed into his huge stomach. Coincidentally, his food was also Beef Lasagna, and he was sitting beside me. haha. The order DID went in a haywire as my drinks were not there, Wen Hui and Charleen's food wasn't ordered. so they did a double order in the end. x.x
Then Wei Liang's food was bombed with so many cheese powder till his baked rice seems to be snowed on. =P I took many many random pictures of my friends unglamorous photos. SO FUNNY!!

After that we have nothing much to do so we took the train home. There is the photo!! =) so on the way, Charleen, Norman and Hajar alights at Bishan. After that Huai Min have to go home so the rest of us decided to go Yin Quan's House. But, only before we alight Khatib then he realise his keys are with Bryan(Cedric's bro). So, ended up we went to play billiard. Cho and Hong Jun went home to change. Wee Boon joined us as we are walking towards Yishun Safra. Weirdly, i manage to beat my friends! So Wen Hui and Kun had to go home so they went off at 11pm. Wee Boon have to work so he left too.

So there's only left with me, Jia Leong, Yin Quan, Wei Liang and Yao Guang. Yao Guang have to go home so the rest of us went to Yin Quan's house next. Played cheat and old maid! but there's forfeit la!! i did like 50-60 push-ups. after that most of us are sleepy so only Yin Quan was awake the whole night.

The next day, Jun Jie came! Donno y no one invited him for the outing though, haha!!

Ok, at least i did something about my blog!!!

P.S. Sometimes, I just wish that everything goes as smoothly as this. C.H.A.N.C.E.

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2010-04-15T23:41:00.002+08:00

Has been a freaking long time since i feel like writing. Everyday like so boring after attachment, nothing but slacking. I wanna have some fun in life! Anyway, i just found out tat my deferment for NS wasn't approved. DOOM! if i dont get approval by this month i will be dead! i think i better do everything to get my Diploma before i go to NS!! This is gonna be so sad if i cannot get my deferment. HOPE, everything goes well and HOPE everything goes my way.

PS: Today wasn't good, but i like it. =D

2010-02-25T00:00:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Esther Oh Li Qi. Thats wad i can only do for you. wish and wish. sorrry for being useless on this date.Many things i wanna do but will never be done.

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2010-02-12T23:11:00.001+08:00

林俊杰 - 转动. The song that explains my heart.

2010-02-12T22:10:00.003+08:00

还来不及看你最腼腆的笑容
任性的时间却不肯停止震抖

总在落幕后才学会如何珍重
他们总爱流言蜚语言不由衷

突然我明白你有多苦的惶恐
泪水淹没了爱要在那里降落

你让真爱转动让自己不停梦
身在其中绕成圆周悲欢都全被你包容

你让灵魂转动用爱燃烧夜空
无可取代的你在我心目中因为你让生命感动

所谓整个世界原来只是你我
也许生命只有两个简单选择

谁来当观众谁在剧情中喔~
渺小的我因为你而勇敢的梦

但愿我能对着你说你多独特
就在不言中感谢你一路陪我

你让真爱转动让自己不停梦
身在其中绕成圆周悲欢都全被你包容

你让灵魂转动用爱燃烧夜空
无可取代的你在我心目中因为你让生命感动

你让真爱转动让自己不停梦
身在其中绕成圆周悲欢都全被你包容

你让灵魂转动用爱燃烧夜空

无可取代的你在我心目中因为你让生命感动

无可取代的你在我心目中因为你让生命感动

2010-01-29T20:50:00.002+08:00

Do you know how torn i m when i heard u had a crush on the two guys? u donno. Wad u know?

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2010-01-23T22:54:00.002+08:00

This few days are like hell. I m suffocating in my own wrath, Put me out of my misery please.

=)

2010-01-18T22:51:00.002+08:00

The first day of my NEW attachment at front office!!! people kip saying i look dam smart and look good! hahaha!! so weird cus i have worked in the hotel for 6 months and suddenly i have changed to another department, its like changing a new hotel. Well, Its quite nice to be working with people i worked with when i was in housekeeping dept. now we are like working more closely. and seriously i find that this job is not that hard, just busy all the while. time really flies!

P.S. Heard a sentence from class95 saying " Just because he didn't love you like what you wanted him to, Doesn't mean that he did not give his total love to you." Really meaningful..

Thats all for the day! hope my 2nd day is enjoyable!

Many things are not said because its not meant to say. Even if u are not ready, i really want to be there. Everyday is harder to live on cus i alwaus think about you. Have u eat enuf? Have u slpt well? Have you BATH? =,) hahas.. I really mean it from the bottom of my heart.. maybe its not touching enuf already. I really wish to be the key again.. To fully unlock you heart like i have not done. This time, with the trouble that i have been thru, i really m who i m.

2010-01-16T00:34:00.004+08:00

I donno wad i m doing, what i m thinking and wad i m feeling. I m no longer the same already. suck man. Dont feel right everyday. lifes getting harder and harder.out of so many days, y must the flashback come ytd night. y i had to shed more tears? i donno wad to do. I donno wad i want. This aint suppose to be said but i m seriously loving someone that i shouldnt be doing. I m confused. Y must it be like that? i donno wad's wrong. Everyday, a small thought of u signifies pain. The past used to be so sweet. everyday is like a dream. I wake up just to sleep. No meaning already.

2010-01-13T23:23:00.000+08:00

I m the cause of all the problem. i will get rid of myself alrdy.

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2010-01-12T02:07:00.002+08:00

i deserve everyting.

Thats wad i can afford that day.

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2010-01-11T23:19:00.005+08:00

Firstly, I don't like her. she is like a elder sister to me. Secondly, wad i got for her is different from what i got for you. never has been the same. cus nothing can replace it. AHHHH, u wont care already.

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2010-01-11T01:07:00.002+08:00

Wad an interesting life i m leading. I donno i should continue to stay happy or not. So many events happening. Tuesday, the day i gonna take my blood test results. Not really feeling worried cus wad is the worst possible outcome anyway? Waiting for many things to happen in my life. Happiness is really a show, to show that i m stronger than before. Silly trying to make u believe in me once more. Maybe we are just fated to be friends ba. Cus i still lacks some things. I know one day i will be able to find it.the key. Trying to be friends again takes time. Cus we used to be so close and suddenly we need to be separated from the part between couple and fren. Let me learn. this time, i m learning to be a friend. Even if u dont need a fren like me, i will try my best. may time tell.. Looking back, I realize i know nothing. Absolutely nothing. Dont blame me. I m slow. Let me catch up again. No excuses this time. Cus i wanna be successful.

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2010-01-09T22:03:00.000+08:00

The truth hurts, but only people who care tells u the truth. who likes hearing it?

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2010-01-08T02:09:00.002+08:00

OFF DAY~~~ tmr play POOL with qihao and CHEEZY!!!! and JIA HUI u ah, sick still eat cornetto want die ah!! our bet still on ah!! if u still eat u treat me meal if not i treat u nice food!! and jessica!! princess sponge!! Study hard!! Knight Jellyfish will guard u de lor!! Imagine 100 of my jellyfishes come find u in your sch escort u home, so dam funny lor!! but stupid sentosa entrance fee $3. freak! if whole army go my money fly~ xD!! hehehehe!! enjoying life ttm!

2010-01-03T23:52:00.002+08:00

Maybe i m tested now. Dun worry, i will survive! today same routine, doing rooms!! horrible man, every time have to worked my muscles to the limit! And one shocking news that i think might change my mood for the day. hope my grandpa is ok..

After i send you the msg, i might know your reaction.

2010-01-02T23:02:00.001+08:00

Today too tired to type! SLACK TIME! Maybe U didn't see. nvm.

2010!!!

2010-01-01T20:19:00.007+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! WELCOMES 2010!! BYE 2009!!

Another good year has past! Another year full of wonderful memories! The year when every of my small dreams came true. I really appreciate what was given to me and i really should have learn to treasure it which i didn't. No regrets, as life goes on! To be honest, many things are so 'dream-like' last year, which made me feel like I'm in dreamland. Had a very memorable party last night!! Also the night i overspent my allowance!! gosh! have to start saving again!!! I wish everyday is so fun! carefree and enjoyable! This year, I wish.. hmm! better not say! =P Let the wish be within me so when it came true, i will have a small smile on my face. =)

There is a hidden msg in the happy new year msg i sent you. If u didn't catch it, my regrets. Hope you see it. =)

To all my friends and all the people around the world!! Lets Get Ready To Rumble!!!!!!!! =D

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2009-12-31T01:34:00.001+08:00

I wanna ask you straight but i don't dare!! how come? I wish i can do it.

And, the girls that i talk to are my really close frens, no other feelings. cus my feelings are always stick to you.

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2009-12-30T01:24:00.002+08:00

Actually on the day when i ask you out to pool u didnt go and ended up going to eat with him i m kinda sad. =) haha, donno y.

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2009-12-30T00:34:00.001+08:00

Wish to do enough. =D

tmr's plan!

2009-12-29T02:25:00.001+08:00

WAKE UP, work! lunch! work! then go find Jessica, go my house take the present! then go eat! LOL.

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2009-12-28T23:50:00.002+08:00

I was just bored and have nothing to do so i just randomly type those words. I cannot forget about you, neither can i forget about anything. You must make a decision, a decision that will 100% hurt someone. Its inevitable. it's part of life. I just wanna stay happy because i m following what you wanted me to be. I no longer emo like i used to be. I wanna be the happy person that can cheer u up whenever u are down. Sometimes bad memories stays with us so we can see how much the person improves. I hope u were just testing me but its no longer a test. I have love you deep enough but how much i loved you, i wont get the past back. Let's look forward to the future with open arms and welcome it with all we can. Because i m always waiting for a right timing.

"Nothing is too much for you, and i will do anything and everything for you."

Just to see that wonderful smile on your beautiful face, its always the most important thing in my life. Am i think too much again? Maybe not. I m dreaming.

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2009-12-27T02:55:00.002+08:00

Its hard to love someone without learning. and when u learnt it, its no longer the same person.

memories.

2009-12-27T00:27:00.003+08:00

Nov 7 2009. wanted to post on that day but was too tired to do it so i wait till today. Dream of it again. and i hope i didnt left out any part.

We met at 10.20am because i am late.(emergency!*toilet*) Accidentally stepped on your shoe with my scandals, asked me not to wear it when we go out tgt again! =x After that we took 812 to safra for pool!! wasnt really good at it but my coaching not bad ah? HAHA I still remember the table number! 10!!!. Around 3pm, we stopped playing and went to eat. walked from yishun to khatib but still can't find what we wanted. =x Gave a weird decision of going to amk hub for food and movie! at first was totally out of nothing but we went there once we reach the MRT. Went to buy tickets for My Girlfriend Is An Agent before going to eat pepper lunch. U ate Salmon pepper rice while i ate beef steak. Went for the movie and ur seat is C22 while mine is C21! hall 7!(have the ticket) =x. HAHA. sent u home after that. good memories eh. memories...

i donno.

2009-12-15T22:49:00.001+08:00

y m i the pillar to my frens relationhip? Seek for me when u need help.. Run away when i need mine..

2009-12-11T00:46:00.003+08:00

"Avalanche" the way i m moving is that fast. i can't stop. I wanna reach the top. No matter what the result is, I will still be happy. because that's all i m gonna do. Nights and rest well.Just wait till the time to tell.

2009-12-10T02:01:00.001+08:00

sorry, i m not backing out this time.

i.

2009-12-09T21:53:00.000+08:00

I stopped thinking about anything but somehow when i chat back with her, i fall in love with her all over again..

2009-12-09T00:37:00.001+08:00

Y do i still feel bitter?

nearly, nearly.

2009-12-04T20:05:00.002+08:00

Today, i had the scare of my life. i went to the store to claim the stock that is leftover from what i miss out yesterday, my manager rush me to get the stock quick because they need to get the list done by today so i go along with them. As the store manager place all the items on the trolley, there's one that weigh 21kg on the top. It's placed directly in front of my neck. i didn't care that much because i have pushed this weighs before. as i try to leave the room, i accidentally slams the trolley at the corner of the door. Guess wad, the 21kg box slams right into my throat. i could not breathe for around 3 mins and it's a total scare. The worst part is i m breathing thru my mouth because my nose was blocked. This 3 mins were nightmare. Luckily it wasn't serious, if not i would have died. Ended up having cuts in my neck area. other than this i had a quite relaxed day too. Now seriously i treasure my life more!!

I m not happy because i wanted to. I am happy because you wish that i m happy. I m not confident because i know myself. I am confident because you wanted me to be. Staying bright is what i need to do because i have nothing else to think about. I will still be your guardian angel until the day when u found the love of your life.. If it's not me, i will leave you slowly and one day u will enjoy life with your love ones. Just feeling satisfied that you accepted me once and it's enough because i know that you once trust me. Just feeling sad because i didn't know what to do. Hope i can know when i m needed and when i m not needed so i don't annoy you unnecessarily. I say i will win you, that's to show the confidence. seriously i know it's quite impossible now but i just hope for one special day to happen..

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2009-12-04T02:12:00.003+08:00

Noobie! Today was quite a slack day at work. nothing much happen today. hahas. wish its so peaceful everyday! ^^ sometimes its better to kill things than leaving it tangling in no where because that may cause other people to have red eyes. Well, you deserve better. Don't worry, all this bad feelings will disappear like it never happen before. U are the happy star! your smile brings laughter to others! ^^ jyjy!

The last time i remember i said the next time you cried will be tears of joy, I didn't achieve that.

WORK!

2009-12-03T01:30:00.003+08:00

Baka! today was the busiest day of my attachment life!! i ran around like a mad person trying to finish my job and still get scolded by my manager for not being able to manage my time well. I am all over the hotel trying to get things clear but everything is all wrong!!! i even cut my thumb trying to safe a christmas tree from falling. -.- haha! Trying my hardest to work hard and stay happy at the same time. Hard ar, but still achievable. even my supervisor is looking for a new job proves that this job is suck-up hardcore! thats all! time to slack liao. tmr chiong again! =>

Hard work deserves a reward!!!

^^

2009-12-01T22:01:00.004+08:00

I just want to make you safe and warm. forever by my side and forever smiling because you are happy with me.

"I will win your heart. This time, no empty promises".

2009-11-30T22:29:00.000+08:00

i wonder..

Jay Sean - War

2009-11-29T18:27:00.000+08:00

My lyrics of the day.

I would march across the desert to defeat my enemy
And I would lie here in the trenches with your picture next to me
And when I told you it's forever, then it's how it's gonna be
Don't, won't let him just take the place of me (No...)

Does he really know you like I know you, all the little things?
Does he really love you, like I love you, how can he compete?
If he makes me fight for you, die for you, would he do the same?
This is turning into way more than a game...

Now it feels like soldiers in a war and none of us are backing down
And I will show you victory is mine before we leave this battleground
Cause he don't wanna leave, and I don't wanna go
And I know just how this battle goes
He don't wanna leave and I don't wanna fight this kind of war

You know he's not the man you think he is; he's hiding all his flaws
So tell me what's the point of fighting? Because we'll all end up with scars
But girl if that's what I must go through, then I'm not prepared to lose
Cause I've already bled so much for you (No...)

Does he really know you like I know you, all the little things?
Does he really love you, like I love you, how can he compete?
If he makes me fight for you, I die for you, would he do the same?
Baby this is turning into way more than a game...

Baby cause we're soldiers in a war and none of us are backing down
And I will show you victory is mine before we leave this battleground
Cause he don't wanna leave, and I don't wanna go
And I know just how this battle goes
He don't wanna leave and I don't wanna fight this kind of war (No, No...)

Getting kind of sick of this battle
Wish I could take it back to when I had you
I'm always thinking that I can have you, just let him have you
It's getting kinda hard to convince you

After all the shit that we've been through
What, would you let all this happen?
You gotta choice to make it stop
It's already going too far...

Girl we're soldiers in a war and none of us are backing down
And I will show you victory is mine before we leave this battleground
Cause he don't wanna leave, and I don't wanna go
And I know just how this battle goes
He don't wanna leave and I don't wanna fight this kind of war

Cause he don't wanna leave, and I don't wanna go
And I know just how this battle goes
He don't wanna leave and I don't wanna fight this kind of war...

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2009-11-29T17:37:00.003+08:00

As Always, Life Is Full of Esther. => Hope u stay happy.

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2009-11-29T16:08:00.002+08:00

my dear, Even if u leave for someone, i can only feel that i can't do what he can do.

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2009-11-28T23:11:00.001+08:00

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2009-11-28T03:07:00.003+08:00

I know u won't read anymore.. But i have to say this. Many things about me i still don't understand well. I can't get my thoughts straight because i still am confused about what i m doing. Every time i meant well comes out to be an awful outcome. i am always straight-forward. Doing things and regretting it later. I never really understand why i m like this but i guess no one will. Sometimes i really regret not thinking about what i m going to do because everything will go wrong for sure. Now that its too late, I have to clear some stuffs. i never meant those words at all. I know u won't care already because i already said it. I know i hurt u again and again. Now that i get it, I just realize I have yet again blown everything away. I don't deserve to say i love you anymore because i have not proven it. Yet again..

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2009-11-27T16:10:00.005+08:00

Look at myself.How fail can i get.

crawling...

2009-11-21T11:35:00.000+08:00

Back to my knees now, everything went back to before. Get the motivations from an unexpected person, my aunt. I was shock when she told me she also suffer from motionless body halfway thru slp. It scare the hell out of her and she told me that those who have it will be more fearless in the future cus not many ppl have it.
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All i need is some time to rest myself with things i need to sort out. Now i no longer want to learn from others. I will experience it on my own without anyone teaching me. Maybe i fall down because i always thought i was right. I failed and maybe it hurt me now but nothing is not worth trying from now on. Too late is no longer the word for me.Hope when i m back, i m a totally new person. this chorus is dam meaningful to me now.

"if we crawl, till we can walk again, then we will run, until we are strong enough to jump, then we will fly.. until there is no wings, so lets crawl, crawl, crawl, back to love."

Till then, its time to be a real......

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2009-11-19T18:13:00.000+08:00

Y m i twisting and turning? i m not being smart.

Meaning.

2009-11-15T15:43:00.000+08:00

I don't want you to sacrifice just because you want to protect your friends. Don't you understand what everyone wants? They just want to see you living well and not protect them by using your own life as an options. Ever wonder what people will feel after you die? Stop being selfish thinking that after you die you don't feel anything but do you know the pain of people that are left behind? There's more suffering than protection. If you really want to protect someone, do it alive. If not you are not protecting people. Thats all.

x.END.x

My life. my story. (meant to be on my birthday)

2009-11-10T15:07:00.000+08:00

Dear life, 17 years have just past. In the first three years in secondary school, i didn't see any importance in friends because I was treated more like a worthless person than a friend. People make use of my to buy food and drinks for them. I was like their servant. I see meaningless in friends.My time have been wasted on people who treats me like rubbish. After the three years, i have been used to doing things for people and gain nothing in return. I feel numb in friendship because nothing is real. I used to be arrogant, proud.Over-confidence was obvious, this is the factor that people hated me a lot. I have made a true friend when i was secondary one but i didn't realize it until i was in secondary four. Many things change in secondary four when i finally have been able to find really good friends. And I know that only a few are my friends right now. I don't mind naming them because i m proud to be their friend.My dearest friends are Jia Leong, Jun Kai, Norman, Benjamin Cho, Wei Liang, Qi Hao, Jun Jie and Jian Howe.

To my good pal Jia Leong, you always have spare time to go out with me even if you are busy on some days. You never see me as an annoying person and even if i disturb you, you will forget about it like instantly. Know you since Sec 1, starting we only are soccer pals but now you are my good pal.

To Jun Kai, The person who treats me differently from other classmates. He is the first person who i see as someone with a unique attitude in life. Deep secrets are surrounding you but you will still hide it anyhow. Maybe i like to joke about you but you know that i am never serious about anything. Well, maybe u didn't care that much too so it makes it fun to be around with.

To Norman. The first friend that i feel that added colour to my transparent body. After the Cathay work i introduced, I will never ever in my life expect you to return me a message, a long meaningful message, of gratitude. It's the first time anyone, really anyone, would show me he really appreciate such a small thing i have done.
P.S.Maybe you have forgotten about it but it will stay in my mind forever.

To Ben Cho. The Cheezy of my life! HAHA. A really good friend that i know from secondary one but we only hangout on NCC occasions. Should have hangout with you more!!

To Wei Liang. For remembering me even though we only knew for 1 1/2 years. You are totally different from people who forgets me instantly when i left school. You are important!!! HAHA.

To Qi Hao. The very protective friend that is the greatest friend i have. A very strong and soft-hearted person. His kindness is always there and he helped me a lot. My number one friend!!

To Jian Howe. a important friend that is funny at times. haha. still rmb early morning roti prata? LOL?

to all my friend, thanks for enduring my linkless lame jokes. haha. lets remember the old times and look forward to the future tgt!! =]

TYVM.

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2009-11-04T12:25:00.000+08:00

Hellos! Yesterday in the wee hours, Jia Leong called me out for supper. LOL. In the end i watch him finish eating his noodle before eating my dim sum. My 100 Plus turns bitter after i ate one piece of my dim sum. taste so awful. Went home at around 3am. We both didn't slept much because we went to play pool at 11am. =x The weather was super hot. Walked to Yishun Safra sweating like crazy. When we are inside the pool area, Its super cold. x.x For the first 3 games, He owned me. -.- then i came back to 3-3. ended up i still lose with 9-7. a bit unfair to him because his tyco doesnt count but mine count. We even compete to see who can clear all the balls in the shortest round. but still we miscount so we draw on that. After that we fought in 9 balls!! first set i win 5-2!!! second set i win again with 5-3!!!! =P. After that we went for our meals. Quite a relaxing day! Hope to enjoy another day of this again!!!

P.S.1 month of greatness.

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2009-11-03T16:32:00.000+08:00

The first month!! really has been great hearing from you everyday, no matter you were happy, sad, angry or piss, you are still the same sweet gal i will love forever. Time flies and we will look forward as time not only flies, it will improve our love for each other more. be it any emotions, I will stay by your side forever. Even though i may look small, but my soul will be big and strong so i can stay on to protect you from anything.. Love you. On and on..

Today!!

2009-10-29T14:59:00.000+08:00

A bit late today but my hands kinda itching so i just type what i want to say and i m off!! Earlier this morning, i felt so tired. Never had this feeling for a long time. After a bath, i felt better. On my way to work, i found my pocket was heavier than usual. My new phone is quite heavy. Normally i will get a lighter phone but i was so attracted to Nokia E63's qwerty keyboard. Sorry jialeong! bought your phone. >< different colour though.. hehe!! On Monday, I had a good day. haha! everything is enjoyable. Only if time stops. U are breathtaking every time i think of you. and i will remember this day forever. its directly one month after my birthday and its special. really special..

=]

2009-10-27T16:42:00.000+08:00

The fun has just begun. !!

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2009-10-25T13:28:00.000+08:00

I M USING EXCUSES TO COVER MY ASS. WDF HAVE I DONE.

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2009-10-25T12:11:00.000+08:00

I m frustrated at myself once again for being random again. i didn't even know wad i m talking about and it has been attacking me. Why do i think about myself only? Why do i say something that has no link to the talk that we have. Whats wrong with me? Seriously i might be insane for saying the wrong answer. WHAT AM I THINKING???? AM I TRYING TO DIE???? If i could shut my bloody mouth with a zip on, i will be fine. My brain likes to think of nonsense and i donno y i cant control it. Its frustrating, i... was wrong. Dead wrong.

wish.

2009-10-25T09:29:00.000+08:00

Lets make a wish. i wish to go back like we were before. no mistakes, no nothing. everything seems different now and its not turning back but it has been moving and moving on. my meaning is still the same. it hasn't change from the start. same words but different outcomes. Good changes will come and bad days will pass.

My dad just told me in the morning that we should be happy because we are still breathing. quite true and i will keep breathing and making the best out of my life. I will not want to regret a small mistake that might hurt again. Changes must be made to me. Fast..

End of today.

2009-10-24T16:43:00.000+08:00

Stressed, beaten, trashed, but not out. many things happened in this few days and i am quite stressed out by it. Everyday i look into the walls and see nothing but my shadows. every time i asked myself whether i have done the best and i am stuck without an answer. I want to do better but i always felt that i have not done enough. I wish everyday is simply fun and enjoyable but that is not life. I will slowly get used to it and by the time it happens again, i will learn to deal with it. Not getting affected is the most important as it affects everything i am doing. Trust me. I will not give up. Trust me. I will try more and more. Trust me. I love u.

Fun!

2009-10-22T17:34:00.000+08:00

Every time i meet you, i feel so relaxed and whatever i do is so worth it because it is just for you. =]

Feeling sick.

2009-10-19T13:41:00.000+08:00

nothing to post. nothing much happened today. just more love. =]

Special.

2009-10-17T17:53:00.000+08:00

I m special because u made me special. =] i love you.

Life's good.

2009-10-15T17:23:00.000+08:00

Everyday is like a same old routine with a little colour added to it. it feels as if there's a rainbow after every rain. =] I won't be a disappointment i promise.Even if i always speak my mind,every single word comes from the bottom of my heart. I will try and bring happiness with a little surprise to your life. If i fail to do it, u can hit my head as hard as u want.=x =] <3 I just hope time slows so i can enjoy every moment with you. Wish u have no regrets being with me, cause i will be there always. All the time.. Forever.

P.S. : Love you as long as ever.<3.E.

x

2009-10-12T15:39:00.000+08:00

=S

2009-10-11T16:46:00.000+08:00

Mixed emotions everywhere. feeling sad but my work wants me to smile. feeling low but have to look happy. but the most important thing is that i will always be with the one i love. really love. <3

bored. Guess. =]

2009-10-10T09:28:00.000+08:00

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Six =]

2009-10-09T16:05:00.000+08:00

Days past but love reminds. Everyday i will improve and be a better me. Hope to be home at nite so i can enjoy the moment with u and u only. no other. =]

=]

2009-10-08T12:27:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to blog about but i want to let you know that i won't be upset over small matters. Everything is worth it in the end.=]

Happy! ;P

2009-10-05T16:15:00.000+08:00

its a enjoyment for me now. To make u happy. =]

No title. LOls

2009-10-05T16:07:00.000+08:00

Work,rest,play. My daily schedule for now. Late for work when i set my alarm at 9am and the worst ting was i did not hear anything and sleep till 11.30. x.x wake up in horror. LOLs. Every morning is the most joyous thing right now. a greeting on a new day is so nice. Every time i re-read it i smile to myself. =]

N and E

2009-10-04T15:57:00.000+08:00

Simply amazing =] Love quotes like this.

I want you to want me.
I love you to love me.
I trust you to trust me.
I rely on you to rely on me.
I believe in you to believe in me.
I stay with you to stay with me.
we need each other the same way and its amazing. =]

3rd of Oct. =]

Keep moving on!!

2009-10-03T12:54:00.000+08:00

Don't stop!!!!

No matter how much u hate doing it, just try! don't stop! maybe it's the stupid questions that they ask but it's how people start things. Take it easy and everything will past very soon. Cheer up and i hope u will be happy all the time.

P.S. : when u are happy. I'm happy. =]

Hope you have a gd nite!!!! sweet dreams!!! =]

Can't find a template.. using temporary..

2009-10-02T16:12:00.000+08:00

Can't find a template today and its getting late. have to wait till tmr ba!! btw, Have a gd nite and rest well. =] my soul will be there to guard u wherever u go. =]

Love

2009-10-02T09:33:00.000+08:00

Love her RT!!! love her more.. LOL

Nothing new.

2009-09-30T16:27:00.000+08:00

Today is an ordinary day. Nothing special. Bye!!... Haha today i did nothing really. After work, I bought my dinner home and was shock to see my mum.. Should have ask her to cook my meal.. Anyway, today was kinda bored as i have to spend the day quite lonely but its lonely times that makes u think clearer. Hmm.. Missing her for just one day is like forever!! LOL. but it's nice. =)

=)

2009-09-30T11:42:00.000+08:00

Today i overslept!!!!! Lucky wasn't marked for that. hehe.. It was a pleasant day today even though it's quite hot. Actually, it is a bless to be able to talk to you all the time and i felt so awake when i see you replying me. Every single time i wish i don't have to go to bed so early because i wanted to talk to you more. Every night i can't stop thinking about you. Feel like holding you tight forever and don't let go. It's just so nice to feel this way and i felt so blessed. =) <3

sch.

2009-09-29T04:36:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. i woke up at 8.45am thinking this is gonna be a long day at sch... then i went there and it lasted for only an hour... that's short. -.-

11.11

2009-09-27T14:11:00.000+08:00

11:11.. =)

Happy Birthday!!!

2009-09-26T17:09:00.000+08:00

Today is my 17th Birthday!!!!! I have received the most valuable gift thru-out my life. It's not the gift that matters. Its the thought that counts. :) Love the way of expression. Its so unique and lovely. <33 Its so early and i didn't know about it at all. hmm.. maybe i over looked it but i was super... SUPER surprised with the msg. =)) HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY till my head is over the moon and the sun!!!! =))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Not Meant to be

2009-09-25T17:35:00.000+08:00

Just think this lyrics suits me alot now.

Theory of the deadman - Not Meant to be

It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you
Wanted from me, and knowing
If I give that to ya
I might just disappear.

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

Oh, it's like

One step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I can't change your mind,

Oh, it's like

Trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe that's there's
No way out for you and me
And it seems to be,
The story of our life

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I can't change your mind, oh

It's like trying to turn around on a
One way street. I can't give
You what you want and it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
That maybe we're not meant to be

There's still time to turn this around
Should we be building this up
Instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
Maybe it's too late.

It's like one step forward
And two steps back,
No matter what I do
You're always mad
And I, can't change your mind, oh

It's like tryin to turn around
On a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I,
I finally see,
Baby that we're not meant to be

It's like one step forward,
And two steps back,
No matter what I do
You're always mad,
And I, Baby I'm sorry to see,
Maybe that we're not meant to be

=)(

Done editing!

2009-09-25T07:14:00.000+08:00

Phew.. super hard to find all the missing codes -.- Finally got the important parts together if not i will be stuck again. My bro helped a bit though.. but at least its done. PHEW..And its really nice to enjoy a day at home eventhough i m doing not doing anything. Texting with ehhem is always enjoyable.. =)

P.S. Thanks!

The Start of my Era

2009-09-23T00:35:00.000+08:00

Today is the day i start a new beginning to my life. Blogging. LOLs. Hardly have time for anyting new so today i try someting that i nvr tot of doing. First time so donno what to type so thats how i end my line for today.