I don't want you to sacrifice just because you want to protect your friends. Don't you understand what everyone wants? They just want to see you living well and not protect them by using your own life as an options. Ever wonder what people will feel after you die? Stop being selfish thinking that after you die you don't feel anything but do you know the pain of people that are left behind? There's more suffering than protection. If you really want to protect someone, do it alive. If not you are not protecting people. Thats all.
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