Do you know how torn i m when i heard u had a crush on the two guys? u donno. Wad u know?
This few days are like hell. I m suffocating in my own wrath, Put me out of my misery please.
The first day of my NEW attachment at front office!!! people kip saying i look dam smart and look good! hahaha!! so weird cus i have worked in the hotel for 6 months and suddenly i have changed to another department, its like changing a new hotel. Well, Its quite nice to be working with people i worked with when i was in housekeeping dept. now we are like working more closely. and seriously i find that this job is not that hard, just busy all the while. time really flies!
P.S. Heard a sentence from class95 saying " Just because he didn't love you like what you wanted him to, Doesn't mean that he did not give his total love to you." Really meaningful..
Thats all for the day! hope my 2nd day is enjoyable!
Many things are not said because its not meant to say. Even if u are not ready, i really want to be there. Everyday is harder to live on cus i alwaus think about you. Have u eat enuf? Have u slpt well? Have you BATH? =,) hahas.. I really mean it from the bottom of my heart.. maybe its not touching enuf already. I really wish to be the key again.. To fully unlock you heart like i have not done. This time, with the trouble that i have been thru, i really m who i m.
I donno wad i m doing, what i m thinking and wad i m feeling. I m no longer the same already. suck man. Dont feel right everyday. lifes getting harder and harder.out of so many days, y must the flashback come ytd night. y i had to shed more tears? i donno wad to do. I donno wad i want. This aint suppose to be said but i m seriously loving someone that i shouldnt be doing. I m confused. Y must it be like that? i donno wad's wrong. Everyday, a small thought of u signifies pain. The past used to be so sweet. everyday is like a dream. I wake up just to sleep. No meaning already.
I m the cause of all the problem. i will get rid of myself alrdy.
i deserve everyting.
Thats wad i can afford that day.
Firstly, I don't like her. she is like a elder sister to me. Secondly, wad i got for her is different from what i got for you. never has been the same. cus nothing can replace it. AHHHH, u wont care already.
Wad an interesting life i m leading. I donno i should continue to stay happy or not. So many events happening. Tuesday, the day i gonna take my blood test results. Not really feeling worried cus wad is the worst possible outcome anyway? Waiting for many things to happen in my life. Happiness is really a show, to show that i m stronger than before. Silly trying to make u believe in me once more. Maybe we are just fated to be friends ba. Cus i still lacks some things. I know one day i will be able to find it.the key. Trying to be friends again takes time. Cus we used to be so close and suddenly we need to be separated from the part between couple and fren. Let me learn. this time, i m learning to be a friend. Even if u dont need a fren like me, i will try my best. may time tell.. Looking back, I realize i know nothing. Absolutely nothing. Dont blame me. I m slow. Let me catch up again. No excuses this time. Cus i wanna be successful.
The truth hurts, but only people who care tells u the truth. who likes hearing it?
OFF DAY~~~ tmr play POOL with qihao and CHEEZY!!!! and JIA HUI u ah, sick still eat cornetto want die ah!! our bet still on ah!! if u still eat u treat me meal if not i treat u nice food!! and jessica!! princess sponge!! Study hard!! Knight Jellyfish will guard u de lor!! Imagine 100 of my jellyfishes come find u in your sch escort u home, so dam funny lor!! but stupid sentosa entrance fee $3. freak! if whole army go my money fly~ xD!! hehehehe!! enjoying life ttm!
Maybe i m tested now. Dun worry, i will survive! today same routine, doing rooms!! horrible man, every time have to worked my muscles to the limit! And one shocking news that i think might change my mood for the day. hope my grandpa is ok..
After i send you the msg, i might know your reaction.
Today too tired to type! SLACK TIME! Maybe U didn't see. nvm.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!! WELCOMES 2010!! BYE 2009!!
Another good year has past! Another year full of wonderful memories! The year when every of my small dreams came true. I really appreciate what was given to me and i really should have learn to treasure it which i didn't. No regrets, as life goes on! To be honest, many things are so 'dream-like' last year, which made me feel like I'm in dreamland. Had a very memorable party last night!! Also the night i overspent my allowance!! gosh! have to start saving again!!! I wish everyday is so fun! carefree and enjoyable! This year, I wish.. hmm! better not say! =P Let the wish be within me so when it came true, i will have a small smile on my face. =)
There is a hidden msg in the happy new year msg i sent you. If u didn't catch it, my regrets. Hope you see it. =)
To all my friends and all the people around the world!! Lets Get Ready To Rumble!!!!!!!! =D
[Esther]
[Huai Min]
[Jun Jie]
[Derrick]
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